so i have been doing a lot of self reflecting lately and i have discovered a lot of things about myself that i feel like are issues that i want to resolve in order for me to grow progressively as a person and also to build better relationships with the people that are in my life. now, this is not to say that i am a person with deep dark secrets and a horrible childhood or anything, i’m generally a happy person and i think that i have lived a pretty good eighteen and a half years so far; there are just things that i think are just pointlessly lingering and serve no purpose but to bring myself down as well as the people surrounding me.

1. i have attachment issues. i tend to think that i am much closer to some people than i actually am. i don’t know if this is caused by my upbringing or anything, but it’s something that i have to resolve because i am very vulnerable in my attached state. i have never had any really close relationships with anyone. like, i’m close with my family, but that’s only because i am bound to them geographically. friends have been coming and going all my life and i wish i have someone to call like a best best friend, but i don’t. i guess in a way, i long for close relationships with people, which is why i may get very attached to some people because i want them to stay in my life. 

i made a list of other things wrong with me on a post-it note but i’m getting really lazy right now so i’ll end this for now.